lately, being superwoman and the energizer bunny has started to take its toll on me. sleeping for more than four and a half hours is now a luxury. Meals are forgotten and having a day with nothing to do is quite impossible.i have lost a considerable amount of weight and have dark circles under my eyes. a couple of nights ago, about three people told me i needed to eat. one of them even said "kangkong na may bagoong" and other vegetables to fatten me up.
waking up at wee hours either to write or make calls, working twelve hour shifts and still writing in between is not a joke.amidst all this, i am a full time mom (and dad). I find the time to dance to kid's songs and give hugs, to reprimand and comfort, and to fill in for everything else.
i've been asked and i myself have often wondered why i subdue myself to this. it started as a diversion. i use to fear the days when i would have nothing but time to think but i realized that even when i tried to escape it, unsolicited thoughts popped up; now this is simply a lifestyle.
it is tiring and i would like to go back to when i had more time to do nothing but last night my daughter said the most rewarding thing "mommy, i'm so proud of you for working hard". i think i may just be able to carry on being superwoman/energizer bunny after all.
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